[ Ashlee's Mind ]

damn...

no one's ever on LJ anymore I see.. lol

Peace!

Pride Fest was a GREAT turn out this year.. I got to dance with Ali and Presley.. it was so fun. Adam and I got free parking, which was also pretty awesome, haha. I saw so many people there.. Kate, Liz, Mary, some other people I know.. lol.. People from Oak Creek.. It was great.

The fireworks were really cool, and it was cute cuz Adam and I got to cuddle up on a picnic table and watch the fire works which were basically right above our heads.. Then afterwards, Ali, Presley and I got to dancing.. I showed Adam my figure 8, and tried to teach him.. He didn't get it at all lmao. But at least he tried.

Then Sunday, we saw Sam and Liz for a little bit, and Sam spilled kandi all over my stairs outside lmao! After we picked em up, we had a pizza/kandi picnic party in the backyard.. It was cool.

Last night, I was talking to Danny, and we got into an argument, but everything's cool now.. Kate and I had a good conversation, and everything's cool between us now too. We came to an understanding, so I'm happy.


Now, Adam has something planned for us, and I have no clue what it is.. So I'm gonna go download some music and make a C.D., then take a shower and get ready, while he's still in an orientation for school.

Peace out!

p.s., I got my car!! :)

Unlike other people.. I'll be at Pride Fest today with some people ;] It's gonna be so fawkin pimp.. Adam's on his way right now, cuz we're gonna make brownies :) haw haw.. Tonight, I'm gonna see a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while, so I'm really lookin forward to it. I've got my glow sticks ready n shit.. haha

Anywho.. I still have to get in the shower and pick out wtf I'm gonna wear.

Kate.. call me!!

Peace.

Ice cream makes me happy.

The end.

So my throat's getting a bit better. I've got plans ALL weekend for once, and then two days after school ends I'm going to a party.. How pimp am I? lol.

Friday, birthday party.

Saturday, Dan Jansen fest with Andria and a whole buncha non-white people lol.

Sunday, club with my dad for my grandpa's retirement/goodbye party.. He's retiring, and taking himself, the wife and kids, and moving to Mexico. I'm gonna miss mi abuelo!! :(

It's so nice outside, I shoulda went to school.. Poop. Oh well, I'm going tomorrow, and getting all my late work and shit so I can study my ass off for final exams. Adam's gonna help, of course.

Anywho.. just updating.
Peace.

I got new pics up on myspace, so go look!!

www.myspace.com/yummiez

:)

p.s., I have strep!! blahhh!

I\'m so crabby today.. I had to wake up to the feeling like someone was digging their nails into the back of my mouth and scraping the fuck out of it, or trying to pull it out or something.. It hurt so bad, I was crying all the way to school.. I called my mom and she bitched at me.. So Grandma told me to stay home, but I went anyway.. I\'m probably gonna end up calling my mom to let me leave later if this pain doesn\'t go away.. I couldn\'t even take my damn pill this morning cuz it hurt to drink, eat, talk, swallow.. Still does.

I wanna fuckin scream.

Anywho, I gotta get back to Independent Lab.. yay, more random history to do.. *SCREAMS*

So I had an orthodontist appointment today.. Wasn't so bad. All they did was take impressions and put more spacers in which sucked, and made my mouth sore.. :( Boo hoo.

Lately, I've been a super myspace whore, and I now have over 1240 friends lol.. Sad, isn't it?

How is everyone's week going? What's goin on this weekend that I'm supposed to know about? Anyone's parents going outta town, so I can bring liquor? haha. jk.. Okay, no I'm not.

Anywho, I'm hoping to have a fun weekend, so keep me updated, you losers.

Love you all!

Peace.

1. Beer is always wet. Pussy needs a little work. - One point to BEER

2. Warm beer tastes awful. - One point to Pussy

3. A really cold beer is satisfying. - One point to BEER

4. If after taking a swig of your favorite beer you find a hair between your teeth, you may vomit. - One point to Pussy

5. Ten beers in one night and you can't drive home. Ten Pussies in one night and you don't want to drive anywhere. - One point to Pussy

6. If you have a lot of beer in a public place, your reputation may suffer. If you eat any Pussy in public, you become a legend. - One point to Pussy

7. If a cop stops you and you smell of beer you may get arrested. If you smell of Pussy he may buy you a beer. - One point to Pussy

8. You normally don't find old beer. - One point to BEER

9. Too much beer and you'll think you see flying saucers. Too much Pussy and you'll think you've seen God. - One point to PUSSY

10. In most countries there's a tax on beer. - One point to PUSSY

11. If you have another beer the first one never gets pissed off - One point to BEER

12. You can always be sure if you're the first one to open a bottle or can. - One point to BEER

13. If you shake beer it'll get all agitated but it eventually it settles down. - One point to BEER

14. You always know how much beer is going to cost - One point to BEER

15. Beer doesn't have a mother - One point to BEER

16. Beer never expects to be hugged for half an hour after you've drank it - One point to BEER




FINAL SCORE: BEER 9
PUSSY 7

That's it! The matter is settled, the clear winner is: BEER

I'm bored... It's mother's day, and adam's at the brewers game. How gay.. I need to find wrapping paper or a bag or something to put my mom's present in lol. Oh well, I've got time.. She doesn't get off until about 3 anyways.

The kids are here, and Santana's in such a good mood, it's so cute. So things didn't go as planned last night, but that's okay.. I think next weekend works better for EVERYONE :)

Anywho.. I'm gonna go outside and mess with Chase and pick on Santa Claus (seneca)

Peace out.

Alright, let's just get everything out in the open.
The only reason I'm typing this on LJ is because people still can't seem to come to me with their problems.. So I don't think I'll go to them either.. I'll just write it on here, how about that?

So to answer everyone elses fucking questions that no one can seem to ask me, but are ABOUT ME...

No, I'm not a hypochondriac, yes, I am a hypicrite, I DO have stomach pains, and I WAS puking wednesday and thursday. I'm not sick "allll the time" so whoever said it.. needs to keep their mouths shut. Like I told Adam.. would you prefer I bring you a cup of puke to see that I was fuckin sick? I wouldn't go to the hospital, costing my parents LOTS of money if I was a hypochondriac, just THINKING I'm in pain and THINKING I was sick. The only time I was sick was Wednesday and Thursday. Every other time, I either had a minor head ache, or stomach pains. What else do you want me to say? I apologize for having stomach pains? Fuck that.

People still can't get it through their heads that it basically IS talking shit about me if you're going to ADAM, asking him questions about me. So from now on, Adam and I agreed... If you ask him something about me, even something as little as "how is ashlee doing?" Don't bother asking him, because he'll just tell you to ask me yourselves.

Thanks.

And Megan.. grow up. I'm obviously not the only person to think you're messing up, and I obviously KNOW I'm a hypicrite. We're not saying these things to bitch at you, we're not saying these things to piss you off and ruin your life.. We're saying these things because we care. So stop getting bitchy when I speak my mind. Don't be mad because I'm the only one that basically has the balls to say what I feel.

I know I used to skip a lot, and I do skip from time to time, but a least I get caught and admit it to my mom.. lol.

Some people need to have their cars taken away.. Seriously, if they plan on having no future, more power to them.. But I doubt they plan that. Most of you might know who I'm talking about.. The person I'm talking about should hopefully know who she is.

I know you wanna skip school because you've got a car, you've got a supposidly awesome boyfriend.. If he's so awesome, why doesn't he ever care that you're skipping school, ruining the hell out of your education just to go see him? I mean is he really that important to skip school every day? Is he really that good?.. *cough* You know what I mean. And yes, that was rude :)

Honestly, if this continues, not only do I think this, but other people that also care about you think that your parents should be aware of what you're doing.. So either way, if you continue to skip school, someone's bound to tell your parents.. Not only does that make YOU look bad, but it makes your boyfriend look bad. And that's about the last thing you need, is another boyfriend your parents dislike, am I right?

I love you, and I don't want to see you ruin your life for some guy. To be honest, I don't even know him, and already, I don't like him at all. Not because I'm "jealous".. I'm over that part. But because he's fuckin you up. He's fuckin up your education, and possibly, your life.

Don't let him do that, and don't do that to yourself.

I've got so many things to bitch about, it's not even funny.

Megan, I need to talk to you.. Like seriously, sit down and have a LOOONGGGGG talk with you.. And no, it isn't to bitch, it's because I fucking care, and I love you to pieces.

Anyways..
I'm gonna have so much fun tonight.

Peace.

Mark an X next to everything you agree with.. or w/e


Would/will you?
[_] give me your number.
[_] come to my house to do nothing at but chill?
[_] fight me?
[_] fuck me?
[_] kiss me?
[_] blow me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] go out to dinner with me?
[_] let me drive you somewhere?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] drink with me?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] let me sleep in your bed?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
[_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] tickle me?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
[_] be down with me no matter what?
[_] go to prom with me?

D0 Y0U...
[_] think im cute?
[_] think im serious?
[_] think im a good person
[_] think im conceided?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to cuddle with me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] think I can fight?
[_] want to *Do* me?
[_] think I would do you?


AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] cute?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] romantic?
[_] a *freak*?
[_] gangsta?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] trustworthy
[_] compassionate?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
[_] well known?


HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about hooking up with me?
[_]found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_] wished I were there?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
[_] been distracted by me?
[_] wanted to see my private part?
[_] looked at my page more than ten times?


ARE Y0U...
[_] happy you know me?
[_] horny?
[_] thinking about me?
[_] wanting to call me to talk about these things?
[_] going to repost this?



and send this back to me...........

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once
In a while
Even though
Goin' on
With you gone
Still upsets me
There are days
Every now
And again
I pretend
I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was bein' so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
Never knowin'
What could've been
And I'm sayin' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Gettin up
Gettin dressed
Livin with
This regret
But I know
If I could do it over
I would trade
Either way
All the words
That I say
In my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowin'
What could've been
And I'm sayin' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

(not sure if all the lyrics are right but I love this song)

Alright, I just got off the phone with you, and yes, I'm pissed.

I'm pissed, only because, yes, I'm jealous.

I'm jealous because I was going to ask you out the same day you told me you were dating.. well.. him. I wasn't even sure if you would've said yes, and I know, you had no idea I was going to do that, so it's not your fault and I shouldn't be mad at you, but I am, and I don't fuckin know why.

So now all I can do is.. well.. nothing. There's nothing I can do. Everything's said and done, I'm not gonna ruin or try to get between what you have. I'm sorry I acted like a bitch on the phone, but what you said was kind of fucked up.. "Jealous ass.."

Thanks for noticing.

Another day of doing nothing.. *rolls eyes* Everyone else is out, and I'm stuck in the house.. I wish I had my car SO BAD!! ugh!! I'm bored out of my mind, and I'm about to like.. take a nap or something. It's about the end of my spring break, and I barely did SHIT with my friends.

I'm crabby now.

I'm gonna go find a movie to put on and just.. probably sleep.

All I wanted to do was be with my fuckin friends, seeing as how I've got not even 3 days left of spring break, and I've barely seen them. I barely see them as it is. And now because my mom found out I cancelled my appointment, she's gonna be a fuckin bitch and tell me I can't go anywhere.

Grandma told me to just go anyway, but that's just gonna make things worse than what they are.. I'm so pissed off that she's fuckin doing this. I KNEW my day wasn't gonna get any better.. I woke up in the best mood ever, then just one bad thing after another happens.

OF COURSE Ashlee doesn't get ONE GOOD DAY without getting bitched at, or some type of drama or bad news... NOOOO not Ashlee...

My mom's so fucking stupid.

It's 4-20, guys.. Like I care? lol.

I'm goin to Sam's tonight.. woo woo!! :) Makes me happy.. It's so nice outside. Although someone just told me something that almost ruined my whole mood... It's really sad :(

To be honest.. I'm crushed.. =/

Anywho.. I think I'm gonna jump in the shower or something. I've got nothing better to do. So yeah.

Peace.

They had to put Nala to sleep today... So Nessa's having like a mini-funeral for her later on today..

This is so sad :(

I love you, Nessa.

R.I.P
Nala